Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Profound Thoughts...

For those of you that know me, you know that I write this blog more as a diary (that one the day boys will read and laugh all they way through) than as some of kind of deep profound-type of journal. As the name of this blog states, we are trying to discover God's perfect plan (and amazing sense of humor) each and every day, so, I keep it light and funny.

BUT, this morning I had a thought. Not a huge profound thought, but one that was profound for me...

I found that Beth Moore has a blog site, so I was reading it -- it's a great site...and today's message brought something home for me -- while Beth Moore is this wonderful woman that God has blessed with an amazing ability to teach His word, she is human...and so is her family (or course as you will read later, it's the husband that makes her more human...leave it to the husband)! In fact, today's post made me laugh...it made me realize that it's ok that we, my family, are not always the perfect Christian-like family that I want so badly for us to be. (I know this, but I'm thinking...did I really know this?)

I am guilty of something I know I should not be guilty of, but I am...After years of going to church and going to a Christian school, you would think I would know by now that Christians are human beings, especially Preachers, Sunday School teachers, Youth Pastors, Preacher's kids, etc...but I don't. I tend to look at them as someone that I look up to. Someone that should be an example in everything they do. Someone not so human. Someone I admire for their work with the Lord, what they have achieved, accomplished whether it be in work, family-life or whatever it might be. Of course, when they fall or make a mistake, I tend to become disappointed because I've held them in such high regard. Disappointed because I wanted so badly to be kind of like them...of course, that is why I should be following more of Jesus and less of humans because after all, they are humans and they do make mistakes and are not perfect.

On rare occasions and in some instances, like Beth Moore's post, I laughed...in a good way:) I laughed because I realized that no matter how hard I try to be perfect or get my family members to be perfect, I can't always control myself or my family...

Her post talked about how her husband feels "ganged up on" since all of his girls are involved in the ministry. How he thought maybe his youngest daughter would not go into the ministry so that he would have one regular person in the house that he could sit around and use "bathroom language" with and talk about other not-so-Christian-like things, etc...This made me laugh because to me, this made her human. It showed me that it doesn't matter how Christian she is, her husband isn't always that way (and she probably has not-so-great days, when she is less than perfect). It made me realize that it's ok to not have the perfect family all the time because really, what is the perfect family... It made me realize that it's ok that my husband uses "bathroom language" while trying to fix the toilet that Palmer broke because he tried to flush a half-eaten apple down it and it became stuck along with the poopie and toilet paper that he used to wipe the poopie and my poor husband had to clean that out to get to the apple to get it out -- ok, that was gross, but you should have been there....it was way worse in person (I managed to not throw up some how). It's ok (well not really ok) that I yelled at my child because he didn't want to go into the bounce room at the gym when all I wanted to do was to make it to my spin class on time (this after sending my child to school all day and then trying to put him into another "childcare" place) -- which by the way, you should know that I replayed the scene in my head the entire time I was in my class and felt really bad. It's ok that Palmer got in trouble at school for calling someone a "poopie butt head brain head." It's ok that we are not perfect. It's ok that we are normal human beings. No matter how hard we try to live the right way and no matter how hard we try to teach our children things to do and not to do...we're not perfect, not even a little bit, but that is ok...all we can do is try...and laugh about it later!

I can only imagine how hard it would be to live in a "fish bowl." To have everyone thinking that you are perfect all the time and yet, at the end of the day, they are just like me...human. And yet, knowing this, I still judge them. So what am I going to do about this?...

I am going to continue holding these people to a higher standard, even though they might fall. I am going to try harder to not judge. Try harder to laugh about things that I just can't control. Try harder to be more forgiving. Try harder to be a better Follower, Wife, Mom, Daughter, Sister, etc...PRAY HARDER and more often...I am going to love my family for who we are and stop trying to immulate other families or people. I am going to PRAY that we continue to work towards and strive to become tthe perfect family that God wants us to be (this includes making more efforts to do the things we know we should do and not do the things we shouldn't do)!

TRULY BLESSED to be Perfectly Phillips (whatever that means right now),
Chasity

PS...As our title states, we are "Perfectly Phillips"...discovering God's Perfect Plan each and every day...

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